Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Good-bye Tonsils

Last Friday my old business of being a surgical nurse just became really personal.
Caroline is having her tonsils and adenoids out on Monday.  I know that thousands of children have this procedure done each year, but it has made me really emotional.  A couple of people have called from the hospital to get medical information about Caroline.  They have also asked, "Is there anything special we should know about Caroline to make her stay better?"  I pause and try to talk, but my throat becomes tight and tears well up in my eyes as I try to tell them, "Caroline is very outgoing and happy.  She loves to sing.  Can you sing to her while she goes to sleep?"
It has stunned the two ladies I spoke with, I just hear silence on the other end of the line.  It's a comforting, not rushed silence though.
I do know that she will be fine.  I know that there are thousands of children that deal with such greater things than this.  I am not scared of the surgery part so much, but just the anesthesia part really.  Them having my little girls breathing in their hands, yikes, I don't like that thought.

She may also have tubes placed because apparently she is not hearing very well because of all the fluid that is behind her eardrum.  The doctor said that she has been missing quite a bit when people talk to her.  That really crushed my heart.  I am extremely grateful that this problem can be fixed!  I am also grateful for prayer.  I had been praying for more patience.  Patience for when I would ask Caroline to please brush her teeth and 10 minutes later she was still lining up her ponies.  Patience for when I would ask her to please come back to the table and she would twirl until she was dizzy.
Answers to prayers come in incredible ways.  I found out she wasn't hearing me. Now I get to look her right in her bright blue eyes when I ask her something and no patience is needed.

(This picture has nothing to do with the post except that another special thing about our little Caroline Ella is that she loves to read.)
One night it was very quiet and I was wondering what she was doing in her room.  I opened to door to a dark room, with only a bright little light from her flashlight.  She was just sitting in her fancy dress reading books to herself.  

10 comments:

Mary said...

It is scary, but you know exactly what will happen. I see T&As and Myringotomies every week, and there are very few complications. She'll do great. And you're a great mom.

The Winegar's said...

Way to look at the bright side and that you are happy that you get to look into her bright blue eyes to talk to her. You will be fine and like I said, it will be comforting to stay with her at night too. She's a sweetheart and will come through it fine. Love, mom

Erica Huff said...

She is such a beautiful girl. We will pray things will go well for you both next week. Good luck!

LJ said...

i love you caroline! get better soon! you are so brave and the nurses and doctors will love being able to take care of you. :)

Nate and Di said...

wish you guys were still up here so I could take care of her...she will do great!

Here And Happy! said...

Just think about all that Caroline has been able to do in spite of her momentary "handicap"! She's an amazing little girl with gifts galore. I can't wait to see how surprised she is at the world when the music is bright, the breathing easy, the sleep peaceful and her little life enhanced. I'm excited for her. Our prayers will be HUGE. Good luck Caroline <3 Grandma and Grandpa B. love you bunches.

Gardner's said...

I had no idea this was going on! I can imagine you are nervous but I can't believe she hasn't been able to hear very well because she is the most animated little girl I've met! I can't wait to see what she is going to be like when she can actually hear the world! Hang in there momma...she's in good hands! We'll be praying for "sweet caroline" on monday for sure!

Sarah Z said...

There's an anesthesiologist at AVH that sings to all the little kids & holds them in a warm blanket on his lap while they blow up the 'colored balloon' aka (oxygen bag) while smelling sweet scents of cherry or bubblegum aka 'laughing gas'. Those are the most peaceful ones to watch! Don't you think Caroline would love that?! Definitely NOT too much to ask for them to sing to her! She will do great, but I definitely feel your worry! Miss you...

Erin Thomas said...

We've had you in our thoughts and prayers all week knowing this was coming. I wish we could be there to help out and support you guys! Give Caroline our love. I know everything will be just fine!

Halley said...

Oh, you made me cry with this one. I am so sorry you guys had to go through this. And I am sorry I am just now seeing this for the first time! It looks like things went well. I am glad for that. We really can't wait to see you guys this summer. I am already making plans!