Caroline is having her tonsils and adenoids out on Monday. I know that thousands of children have this procedure done each year, but it has made me really emotional. A couple of people have called from the hospital to get medical information about Caroline. They have also asked, "Is there anything special we should know about Caroline to make her stay better?" I pause and try to talk, but my throat becomes tight and tears well up in my eyes as I try to tell them, "Caroline is very outgoing and happy. She loves to sing. Can you sing to her while she goes to sleep?"
It has stunned the two ladies I spoke with, I just hear silence on the other end of the line. It's a comforting, not rushed silence though.
I do know that she will be fine. I know that there are thousands of children that deal with such greater things than this. I am not scared of the surgery part so much, but just the anesthesia part really. Them having my little girls breathing in their hands, yikes, I don't like that thought.
She may also have tubes placed because apparently she is not hearing very well because of all the fluid that is behind her eardrum. The doctor said that she has been missing quite a bit when people talk to her. That really crushed my heart. I am extremely grateful that this problem can be fixed! I am also grateful for prayer. I had been praying for more patience. Patience for when I would ask Caroline to please brush her teeth and 10 minutes later she was still lining up her ponies. Patience for when I would ask her to please come back to the table and she would twirl until she was dizzy.
Answers to prayers come in incredible ways. I found out she wasn't hearing me. Now I get to look her right in her bright blue eyes when I ask her something and no patience is needed.
(This picture has nothing to do with the post except that another special thing about our little Caroline Ella is that she loves to read.)
One night it was very quiet and I was wondering what she was doing in her room. I opened to door to a dark room, with only a bright little light from her flashlight. She was just sitting in her fancy dress reading books to herself.